"All I know is that I would like to be somebody else, at the risk of being a man of genius, a great man. Yes, I must confess something tells me I would. I have never heard any of them praised without feeling secretly furious. I am envious. So when I hear something disreputable about their private lives I listen with pleasure. It brings us nearer together and makes my own mediocrity more bearable. I tell myself: 'You would never have written Mahomet, that's a fact, but neither would you have permetrated the eulogy of Maupeou.' So I have been and still am angry at being mediocre. Yes, yes, I am mediocre and angry. I have never heard the overture to "les Indes Galantes" played, never heard Profonds abimes di Tenare, Nuit, eternelle nuit" sung, without ruefully telling myself: 'That's what you will never do."
--Denis Diderot, "Rameau's Nephew"

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I'm listening to sad classical music and drinking rosebud tea.............

Blaaah

Life really sucks right now. What to do, what to do? I don't know what to do, how do people stay focused on these things?

Owie

At school right now, waiting until 2 O'clock to check out my math textbook. Than I plan to head to the math lab until 3:30pm. Metabolism workshop was a bit boring today, a lot of new people, a lot of repitition. Which is good to some extent but I think I've moved beyond it for now.

My Micro teacher gave me a copy of the book!!! Someone told her how I didn't have one because I was poor and she gave me hers for the semester. She is so nice, and now I feel extra motivated to do well because I don't want to let her down.

I might be getting ill. Pain in my chest, headache, random other aches. Stupid cold, you better not interfere with the catering on Tuesday.

Oh! I saw Mr Sarte yesterday! I was so ashamed to admit I was doing so badly. What is wrong with me this term? Yeah, classes are more difficult but not THAT much more. *mumble mumble*

He has his work, and nothing more...

Sun, sun, sun. All week long. It depressed me a bit but I'm used to it again. Ben took me to a movie last night, 'An American Carol'. It was funnier than I thought it would be. Kelsey Grammer was hot! Haha.

Lab practical yesterday. It went so well on most everything but the metric conversions! Oh god, they bit me in the ass. Along with the serological pipettes and the photos of cells. Have another practical today, along with a second midterm for the class. Another math exam next week. Just kill me now.

Also, no one else is doing Nano because of WotLK. Darn you, stupid game. Why can't you come out in December!

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Book: Enders Game/The Once and Future King

House: Okay, going to clean it tonight.

Raindrops keep falling on my head...

I have more yarn! I finally got the time to waddle over to the knit shop and buy some. I got bulky wool yarn in pine mist, or dark green if you prefer. It will be the best scarf EVAR! As I was waddling over there, guess what should happen to happen? (haha) Rain! I love you rain, I've missed the smell, the feel of the drops in my hair. Heck, I've even missed it falling into my eyes. I think that people thought I was a bit mad though, I couldn't stop smiling and humming that 'Singing in the Rain' song.

Today was too busy. Open lab at 8am-9am. Other open lab from 9am-10am. Math from 10:20am-12:00pm. Open lab from 12:00pm-3:00pm. I only stayed till about 2:00pm though. I couldn't concentrate at all. Luckily I had knitting and Father Ted to greet me at home. Overall, a wonderfull, wonderful day.

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House: Clean! Dishes, mopping, some laundry. Heck, I even bathed the cat.

Book: Re-reading The Once and Future King

I like to ramble.

I went to a Metabolism Workshop for Microbiology today, The teacher says it's one of the hardest sections but the way Clipper explains it is really good. I think the next midterm is only metabolism. Yikes. Speaking of midterms, another one on Wednesday. 2 lab practicals, one Tuesday and one Wednesday. This weekend will be pain.

We're doing the bones in my A+P class and I love it. I hear some of my other classmates commenting on how cool it is that the body works together and all that, how interesting it all is. But I have to wonder, do they feel it the way I feel it? I love anatomy, I can feel it in my heart when we learn about it. I can feel the joy as my fingertips are electrified by touching a real human bone. Yes, they say it interests them, but when I look excited to learn a new section they look at me as if I've sprouted two heads. Well, har-har. Go ahead and butter the teacher up with how much you supposedly love the subject and those of us who feel the pull of the human body can revel in the little intricacies that you will never see.

Studying vs Knitting

Yesterday was somewhat productive. I arrived at the library at 9:30 and stayed until about 2. I do admit that half an hour of that was spent thinking of Nanowrimo ideas. Yes, it's very early for that. But seriously, I think I've got the bones of the skull pretty well memorized for the moment and should do well on Monday's quiz.

The rest of the day, didn't really go as planned. I had hoped to start some math when I got home but instead I started knitting. I was knitting for about 4 hours yesterday. I fail at life. I'm going to the yarn shop after church to get some wool yarn for a pretty, pretty scarf I plan to make, but hopefully I'll get some homework done too!

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House: Did laundry, need to do dishes. I really miss having a dishwasher.

Book: Almost done.

Homework: Going well....I think, I hope, pray.